Ever had the feeling that you should walk away from something but just cant?
Ive been trying.. but every time.. i just get sucked by in.
Im sick of this.. sick of endlessly trying and never getting any where.
Sick of waiting and hoping for a dream that will never come true.
Sick of always watching my hopes fall.
I don't wanna leave it all behind.
Its just too painful to do.
But its slowly eating away at me.
And i dunno how long more before I break.
Update(7 pm): whew.. okay excuse that moment of depression.. ah well.. Life goes on. No matter how big a problem. Feeling better now.. haha.. at least i think i am.. haha.
~ Life a tedious repetition of ~
~ Which Path should i take? ~
Confused by emotions
Haunted by mistakes
Led by impulse
Offering no reprieve
Ending all despair
Over the times, I journey onward
Reaching the same conclusion over and over again
Conflicted by thoughts
Hollow feelings inside
Restrained by Reason
Intimidated by Fear
Surrounded by decisions
Taunted by Fate
I look down the paths
Needless memories fill my mind
Eventually a choice must be made
Questions have been going around in my head..
Wondering which road to take..
Discover the cipher within..
And my dilemma will be revealed..
Haunted by mistakes
Led by impulse
Offering no reprieve
Ending all despair
Over the times, I journey onward
Reaching the same conclusion over and over again
Conflicted by thoughts
Hollow feelings inside
Restrained by Reason
Intimidated by Fear
Surrounded by decisions
Taunted by Fate
I look down the paths
Needless memories fill my mind
Eventually a choice must be made
Questions have been going around in my head..
Wondering which road to take..
Discover the cipher within..
And my dilemma will be revealed..
~ hello again =) ~
Woo.. headache.. haha.. dunno why.. came all a sudden haha.. oh well.. today was a pretty good day.. started off pretty well.. slept pretty good.. so went to church earlier today..
Our speedlight's violinist, Chloe, gave me a shock today.. i was sitting there then she walked up beside me and said hi.. and i actually turned back to see who called me lol.. by then she was in front already haha.. oh well.. speedlight was awesome today.. a little messy in my opinion but still awesome nonetheless =)
rehearsal were great too.. cant wait for next week.. wanna try something new for the sound board..
Im off for training tomorrow.. coach just gave me a new form to try.. so gonna work on it tomorrow.. gotta be in school by 830am.. so im probably gonna crash soon.. not to mention try to get rid of this headache and sore throat.. sigh.. haha
Our speedlight's violinist, Chloe, gave me a shock today.. i was sitting there then she walked up beside me and said hi.. and i actually turned back to see who called me lol.. by then she was in front already haha.. oh well.. speedlight was awesome today.. a little messy in my opinion but still awesome nonetheless =)
rehearsal were great too.. cant wait for next week.. wanna try something new for the sound board..
Im off for training tomorrow.. coach just gave me a new form to try.. so gonna work on it tomorrow.. gotta be in school by 830am.. so im probably gonna crash soon.. not to mention try to get rid of this headache and sore throat.. sigh.. haha
~ okay.. aftermath of the operation.. ~
alright so i had my root canal surgery yesterday.. and frankly.. it hurt a lot less than what i expected it to be.. specialists sure are different.. although i have to admit.. my face felt really numb after that.. and my jaw hurts a little.. maybe due to all the medication the dentist jabbed into me.. haha.. so anyways.. the first part of the operation is done.. next appointment is next thursday.. haha..
okay so what have i been doing so far? nothing much to be honest.. slacking at home.. going to training.. only noticable different is that for the first time.. i attended a CE activity haha.. went to gardenia bread factory with 2 of my classmates..see?
of course im not inside.. im the one taking the photo lol..
it was pretty fun.. despite the long bus journey.. these 2 can keep talking like forever haha..
heading back to training tomorrow.. hopefully the temporary filling doesnt give me any trouble.. then by next week everything will be as good as new =)
okay so what have i been doing so far? nothing much to be honest.. slacking at home.. going to training.. only noticable different is that for the first time.. i attended a CE activity haha.. went to gardenia bread factory with 2 of my classmates..see?
of course im not inside.. im the one taking the photo lol..
it was pretty fun.. despite the long bus journey.. these 2 can keep talking like forever haha..
heading back to training tomorrow.. hopefully the temporary filling doesnt give me any trouble.. then by next week everything will be as good as new =)
