Yawn.. YES!!! i survived the bbq all nighter AND training the next day.. but im so damn beat now.. sheesh.. doubt ill ever do that again..
so anyways.. heres the highlights =)

20th February 2009:
Headed down to Timothy's place in the morning.. carrying everything from my laptop to my tent.. so i looked like i was gonna camp outside his house haha.. well.. spent almost the whole day there.. gaming and just catching up on old times.. (FYI Timothy's my sworn bro from sec school, we're pretty close ^^) So after that.. caught a lift from his parents and dropped off at Yio Chu Kang Mrt station to head down to town and fetch someone =), waited for her then cabbed down to sembawang park for the picnic.. everyone was already high.. wonder wad me and sarah missed.. oh well.. anyways.. it got really high really fast.. with all the drinking and joking around.. but.. after around 2-3am.. it got really down really fast.. did a couple of things i wish i didnt.. went emo-ing around for a bit.. until a inspirational talk by two of my best friends in class(really surprising =P) sorta cleared my mind and allowed me to think wad i wanted to do next.. thanks gals.. for real.. both of ya really helped..

21th February 2009:
So after all that.. packed up everything and headed down to school.. or went zoe's house first to grab a towel.. wanted to take a shower at sports complex's toilet but elwin(good bro man) invited he over to his apartment(aka RP's hostel) to take a bathe.. man im damn grateful to him.. if not the whole day im gonna be smelling of liquor and smoke.. and thats so not appealing.. so being sleepy and tired as i am.. i managed to keep up with the training and stayed in pace with the rest.. only to reach home and literally fell dead on my bed..

well it was as usual for today.. headed down to church.. served for speedlight and stayed back for rehearsal.. the usual works ^^

before i forget though.. heres some pics from the morning after the picnic.. the sky was really nice so i started snapping..

the crazy 4 people who were running around the beach

dexter,zoe and rajan.. notice nandini emo-ing in the background =P

rajan and zoe..

rajan's turn to emo.. wad the heck man..

and zoe just going psycho!!!

Nicholas Lu, Signing Off

well sorry.. haven had to time to update.. too busy with the many preparations.. aka NTU Open, class bbq.. so on and so forth.. well anyways.. life has been really confusing.. no idea wad's going on really.. trying to make sense of it all.. wonder how to carry on.. how to leave things be.. and just go on.. guess i cant since im such a worrisome guy..nothing i can do bout that now can i ^^

class "bbq" later on.. sarah still hasnt replied me.. hope she does soon.. need to know wad time to leave.. so pictures will be on later.. if there are any pictures..

so cya peeps..

If I were Rain, I would be the link between the Heavens and the Earth.
Can i ever be connected to someone's heart that way?

Ah.. okay.. theres a new song on my blog.. in the likelihood you dun understand japanese(which i think would be most of you ^^) heres the english lyrics

Sen No Yoru Wo Koete
I want you to love me, but i don't think you will
I wander around as i repeat this to myself
It's the only answer i have, even if i'm scared of getting hurt
I'll say "I Love you" to the one I love

Do you love me or not?
I don't care what the answer is, I just need to know
No matter how much i desire to be with you
There are many unchangable things in this world
And my love for you can't be changed by anyone

As one thousand nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
I want you to love me, but i don't think you will
I wander around as i repeat this to myself
It's the only answer i have, even if i'm scared of getting hurt
I'll say "I Love you" to the one I love
Putting these feelings into words is so scary
But I'll say "I love you" to the one i love

The happiness we chance upon in our lives can't be expressed in words
That's why we can only smile
And sing "Do-Re-Mi" among the vivid autumn colors
With winter at our backs, waiting for the sunglight shining through the leaves in spring
To be born anew, in a way that we're able to protect someone

As I look at the path I'd travelled and the path ahead
My eyes were filled with fear
I wanted to look into your eyes
But I was afraid i wouldn't be honest
I didn't want to know that you didn't love me
And live the rest of my days alone
That day, i kept on loving you without getting hurt

As one thousand nights pass, I long to tell you
I have to let you know
I want you to love me, but i don't think you will
I wander around as i repeat this to myself
It's the only answer i have, even if i'm scared of getting hurt
I'll say "I Love you" to the one I love
Putting these feelings into words is so scary
But I'll say "I love you" to the one i love

Even if my feelings aren't returned,
saying "I love you" to the one i love
That's the most beautiful thing in the world

really brings back memories.. both good and bad.. mostly bad but oh well..
Man.. holidays are here but im so bored at home.. and i cant go out either.. sniff.. need to ask my mum soon.. wanna go out..
Ah well.. gotta find something to do soon..

Why is it that when you finally decide on something, something else comes back to haunt you?
Is it Fate? Is it Coincidence? I don't know. But I know i will take things one at a time. And hopefully, it won't destroy me again... I Hope..

A fairly old song.. but one that still has a lot of meaning to me.. heres the video ^^


Life Goes On - Arisaka Mika

Life Goes On~
My tears flowed as I looked up at this sky
So blue, so empty. It made my chest tight
If this is destiny, until this sorrow has ended,
I Will keep on fighting one day at a time

Life goes on, burning, as long as i live
Even when it seems that i have lost sight of the truth
Life goes on, I still want to protect this shattered heart.
These eyes filled with true sorrow know, llove is overflowing.

In the land where blooming winter flowers are hazy colored,
the flowers began to sing,"Kindness is strength."
For what purpose? For whose sake do you continue fighting now?

Life goes on, being reborn. If i can go unnoticed, i'll come and see you.
I don't want to go any further if I lose more than twice, but,
Life goes on in this era, as long as there is birth.
Now with these arms I'll catch your heart, believe in love.

I can feel your heart in motion,
deep down in your dark affection.
Life Goes on,
and so we love each other in the sadness and pain.
Life Goes on ~ goes on ~ goes on
Go wait for yourself.

Life goes on, burning, as long as I live.
I want to share this light with you once more someday.
Life goes on, i still want to protect a hasty prayer to the heavens.
These eyes filled with true sorrow know,
love is overflowing..

Love is overflowing...

Ahh.. woke up at 6 today.. why did i wake up so early?? no idea.. ah well.. wake up then stay up lor..

gotta go for training later.. in like 20 minutes time..cannot slack liao.. 2 more weeks to NTU open and im seriously not ready.. gonna choing like siao..

lately life seems very plain.. i dunno why.. maybe its because of the hols and im stuck at home most of the time.. man only 3 days passed and im already bored out of my mind.. imagine 3 months holidays.. oh my gosh.. gonna find stuff to do liao.. definitely need to find a job.. cause i want my metal bow!!! i just calculated.. at the rate im saving money..without a job.. it would take me 3 and a half years to get one.. zzz cannot wait so long.. anyone got lobang for job?? hurry i need job!!!

Trying to get over the plenty of stuff that i should get over.. i should stop worrying.. theres no point.. since i dun know wads gonna happen anyway..

Definition of Worry:A state or feeling of uneasiness of things that MIGHT happen.

and i just realized that it takes more energy(both emotional and mental) to worry about things that MIGHT happen than to find a solution..
and thinking back.. 80% of the things that i worry about.. dont come true.. hilarious right??

so i guess ill stop worrying and just be swept along this great current of Life.. enjoy the things that come to me.. and just take things one at a time, as they come..

yah yah very wordy post hor?? no pictures to put up anyways.. or wait..

those who have seen my lappy lately should know this is my wallpaper.. just a huge compilation of the memorable moments in my life.. created using photoscape.. came out pretty well ya?

okay gonna go.. need to get to training.. cya peeps

Nicholas, Leaving Everything Behind